I missed the anniversary of the transplant last week as I was in hospital, but it is probably worth remarking on, although this time last year I wouldn’t have expected to be where I am now!<\/p>\n
Firstly, can I thank you all for your comments and expressions of support – I have said so before, but it really does make a difference to know that you are are all thinking of me, and I draw great strength from it!<\/p>\n
As you might imagine, the last couple of days have been a time of great adjustment. Tears have been shed, and I’m sure there will be more, but we have reached a ‘stable’ stage for the moment! <\/p>\n
It is ironic that I have been lecturing on bereavement counselling for Leukaemia Care, it takes on a slightly different perspecive when it becomes personal! Certainly knowing about the grieving process, and anticipatory grief gives insight to why my emotions are as they are, although that knowledge doesn’t enable one to short circuit the grieving process! I certainly feel angry at the potential loss of my remaining life, and the retirement that we might have enjoyed. Equally I recognise the arrogance in that statement – none of us has any “right” to an allotted lifespan, and I have had a good and interesting life. Perhaps the saddest thing is that Olivia may have no positive primary memories of me.<\/p>\n
However, that is defeatist (or realist? :)) and there is much to do. Tomorrow I have a PET scan at St Thomas’s – number 19! – so we will see exactly what is happening, and I am still holding out for the donor lymphocytes!<\/p>\n
On a positive note, I am eating well, and I think I might have put on a little weight. Certainly my face seems less gaunt, and I think my hair is starting to grow back! I certainly feel a lot stronger than I did at the start of the week, and with that physical strength comes back the mental determination not to give an inch without without a fight!<\/p>\n
Finally, I promised you some more photos of Olivia. I have a selection taken during the last week, so I will sort some out and process them to a suitable size for the blog and post them over the weekend!<\/p>\n
Is “Onwards and Upwards” still appropriate? I’m not sure, but it is certainly preferable to the alternative!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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